you know those times
when you have all the right outside excuses not to hang out with people but inside you know there’s a real definite reason you don’t want to? or maybe it’s more than one personal excuse…
that’s me.
sometimes the truth is i don’t want to hurt feelings..
or some things are too personal to share.
stuff i only share with God or possibly my mentor.
still testing the mentor relationship. i share a lot but there are days i don’t know if i trust this person enough with everything….like my mentor in nashville. i shared everything with her. actually i take that back…i could’ve forgotten to share some stuff since new stuff always pops up but you get what i mean.
just the other day i had the most bizarre thought. i was thinking about my church family in nashville and how when i visit them, i feel at home. but i feel that way about people up here in new england too. it’s the people. relationships. God makes those home. then the bizarre thought came. i’m not saying it’s anything valid but i had it: what if God movies me back to nashville? nahhhh, He wouldn’t…what would i do there??
so i thought about it some more and i think it’s a distraction. i will always love nashville. but having lived up in new england for a year i’ve developed more of a heart for this whole area. and i really love my job/jobs. sure i whine about the administrative stuff but we all need to be in places of stretching. that’s mine. we all need to grow and in growing there’s pain. sucky process but hey, the end result is growth and maturity! so that’s my story….a part of it.
hope you enjoyed.
peaceout.
